Happy or Satisfied?

I'm thinking a lot about one question:
Am I happy with what i have done in my life?
it's birthday syndrome (LOOOOL)
every year i think about this issue when i feel that my birthday is getting closer
so one day i was talking to one friend and posed the question:
are you happy with what you have done with your life?
we talked a lot and then later i was talking to another friend just a chitchat when she suddenly asked me the same question
so making a quick survey
A is me, B is my first friend, C is my second friend
what is in common between us:
- we almost the same age
what is the differences between us:
- A & C are females, B is a male
- A & B live in egypt among family and friend, C lives alone abroad
- A & B work in the IT field, C works in the Marketing field
- B & C bought new car in the past months
so we can say that we are 3 different types of people, 3 different lives
but we had the same answer to this question
"thank god for all his blessings BUT...."
there are more that we aim to, or think of having it
we don't think we reach the point of total happiness
we are just satisfy with our lives at this point, every one of us is grateful to god blessings and BELIEVES that he/she lives a good life
but we use the word good instead of using average
we live an average life
so is this unsettled status happened because we are bad persons, or because life is different
ex: my father was a GM before being 30 years old, can i be GM before my 50?
that's the question; is what happening around us affect negatively our progress and growing? or you can set your mind to do whatever you want?
does life accomplishments count or it's vain talking?
what's success? happiness?
what are the standards? what are the boundaries between average, good and superb?
so what if we can't be Bill Gates? will our lives be average or good?
what the right thing to do: be satisfy with what you have /or/ aim to have more to be happy?
share me your thoughts

رواية عزازيل: واحد صينى بيغنى فرنساوى

عزازيل مجرد رواية وليست مخطوط حقيقى وعلى هذا فيجب التعامل معها من هذا المنطلق
منطلق انها رواية او رؤية شخص المؤلف لأحداث بعينها
ولكنها ليست سرداً تاريخياً أميناً محايداً لفترة من الفترات
مشكلة عزازيل كرواية فى منطقها
بمعنى عدم قبول صفة المتحدث وكلامه
بشكل أوضح: من غير المنطقى ان يقول راهب هذا الكلام

اذا استبدلنا شخصية الراهب بشخصية شخص عادى
يكون الكلام الذى يقوله متسق تماماً مع شخصه
اذا وقف شخص بعينين مسحوبتين ليغنى بالفرنسية
لن يجد من يصدقه او يستمتع بأدائه
سيحدث نفور بين مانراه وما نسمعه
هذا هو ما يحدث فى القصة
فالمنطق الذى يتحكم فى البطل هو منطق غير رهبانى بل غير مسيحى اصلا
يحدث نفور شديد فى لحظات عندما يذكر راهب استمتاعه بالخطية وتمنيه العودة لها
فبينما من شروط التوبة عدم ذكر الخطية مرة اخرى وعدم الدخول فى تفاصيلها حتى اثناء ممارسة طقس سر الاعتراف يقوم الراهب بذكر التفاصيل الدقيقة لما فعله مع اللواتى احبهن
هذا هو التضاد بين الكلام وصفة قائله
فاذا كان البطل شخص عادى يتذكر نزواته يكون الكلام متسق جدا مع صفة قائله
اما ان يقوم الراهب باستدعاء خيالات الماضى كل يوم فهو فعل غير رهبانى اساساً
ولآن المؤلف لا يدرى او يعلم بتفاصيل الحياة المسيحية وبالأخص الرهبنة
نجد هناك تفاصيل تسقط عنه
فالراهب لا يذكر انه تاب ابدا عما فعل وبالعكس يستمر فى حياته كأن شيئأ لم يكن
الراهب يختار اين يصلى فى الكنيسة او فى الصومعة؟ قد ينام وتفوته الصلاة؟ لايوجد نظام محدد للدير؟ الرهبان يعلمون لاحقاً بوجود شيئاً ما بين الراهب وامراة بجوار الدير ولا يقع عليه اى عقاب او حتى يوجه له اى لوم او تأنيب؟
وهكذا تفاصيل لا تسترعى انتباه غير المسيحى ولكن بالنسبة للمسيحى فهى واضحة ومرفوضة

اظهر المؤلف حب الراهب لنسطور وكرهه لقادة كنيسة الاسكندرية فى هذا الوقت
وهذا راى المؤلف وهو حر فيه ولكن
عندما اعرض الخلافات بين الجانبين كان يعرضهما من وجهة نظر غير مسيحية
فتفسير نسطور او آريوس لم يعرضهما بشكل صحيح
كون المؤلف غير مسيحى ظهر بوضوح فى الفاظ وافكار كثيرة
وانا لا ارى ان هذا عيب فى حد ذاته
فلا يجب ان نحصر الأدب فى طوائف وانواع (ادب مسيحين - ادب غير مسيحين) ولكن ارى ان هناك الكثير الذى كان يجب ان يتعلمه المؤلف عن المسيحية كدين وعن الرهبنة كنظام قبل ان يكتب روايته
ولهذا كان كالصينى الذى يغنى بالفرنسية

النقطة الجوهرية برأبى ان الكاتب يقول على لسان بطله انه لجأ للرهبنة ليستريح من صخب العالم
وهذا هو لب القصيد
فالرهبنة اساسها حب الله ورغبة فى الحياة مع الله فى صلاة وتعبد وليست هروب من العالم وصخبه
هذا هو المنطق الذى يغيب عن الكاتب لانه لا يعرفه
ومن هذا المنطق يكون من الطبيعى ان يفكر الراهب فى من احبهم قبلا واخطا معهن
فهو لا يفكر فى الحياة مع الله بل يفكر فى البعد عن صخب العالم
اذا كانت الرهبنة هروب من العالم وصخبه فلم تكن لتستمر كثيرا بقوانينها الصعبة
فيكفى ان يقوم كل فرد يريد ان يبتعد عن العالم بالعيش على اطراف المدن ليستريح من الصخب والمشاكل
ولكن الرهبنة ليست محاولة للحياة الهانئة الهادئة بل هى حياة مع الله لها متاعبها ومصاعبها التى يتحملها الرهبان راضيون

معدل التضخم السنوى في مصر 23.1%

ارتفاع معدل التضخم السنوى في مصر الى 23.1% خلال يوليو الماضى
أعلن الجهاز المركزى للتعبئة والاحصاء ارتفاع الرقم القياسى لاسعار المستهلكين (معدل التضخم) فى الجمهورية /الحضر والريف/ خلال يوليو الماضى الى 23.1% مقارنة بنفس الشهر من العام الماضى 2007، فيما ارجع ذلك بصفة أساسية إلى إرتفاع الأسعار فى مجموعات الطعام والشراب والمطاعم والفنادق والنقل والمواصلات

\*************** رحمتك يارب *********************/ اول مرة احس بالجملة اللى بتتقال فى الصلاة (ارحمنا من الغلاء والوباء وسيف الأعداء)

pepsi football AD

my friend is away again

My friend is back to USA after 3 short months
so saying with mounir

لو كان لزامن علينا الرحيل
كارهك يا وداع ولا بديل

WIKIMANIA .. to be continued

last night in the BA, there was a meeting by the wikimania 2008 organizer about how to fill the gap in the arabic wikipedia
they were young people full of energy and hope
and i agree on everything they said
we should write about ourselves instead of letting the others write whatever they want about us
the speaker demonstrated some example:
- an israeli writer wrote that Israel won the kiboor day war (not that Egypt won the 6th october war)
- someone wrote that in alex, young homeless are selling BANGO to the tourists in the street in the daylight

one thing i want to say:
all the people who talked or the people who asked question were talking english/arabic language
as we "people in the IT world" always do
people can't make a full arabic sentence were talking about writing arabic articles
so FUNNNNNYYYYYYYY

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the photos in the header are mine
the views in the posts are mine
the design is mine
:)

Heath Ledger : vain death : الموت عبثاً

this actor was died at the age of 28

he died during his last movie shooting (BatMan)

when he died he was just taking off with his career to the big actors zone

and suddently he died

what is really impressed me is that he didn't die because of alcholic, car accident, robery, ... etc

NOOOOOO

he died on the floor of his friend appartment because of an overdose sleeping pills

ya7'reb bit keda

an entire life is ended because a tiny pile

i didn't know this actor well before his death, but since his death and the net is full of stories about him

how great actor and person he was

and now they talk about award oscar to his name

well i don't care

what is hitting me is an entire life is ended by accident because he took some sleeping piles more then he should

a normal kind of action millions of people doing daily and still alife

the cause of his sleepless days is his last role of the batman Joker

the role was a chalenge and he was too much into it, and his worries prevent him from sleeping so he get addicted to sleeping piles

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

VVVVVVVVVVVVVVAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNN

in other word : " عبث "

people are dying for no reason by missuse their life (if we can say that: using life)

we live and act without putting in consideration the other option that WE COULD DIE NOW

creepy

first impression i had when i read the details of his death is:

stupid!!! is a movie role equal to life

then i realized that he probably wasn't in a healthy mental condition or he could know the right amount of piles to take

fear of lose and failure can cause death!!!!!!

in his last interview he said that he was terrified because the comparison people may make between him and Jack Nicholson

again it's a job not a life

but obviously for some people, job is life, passion is a weapon

oh god !!! PLEASE GIVE US THE INSIGHT TO KNOW WHAT IS THE IMPORTANT IN THIS LIFE

i pray from all my heart that no one would fall into this fear of failure weapons

Wikamania 2008: some notes

1- more then 60% of the audience carry their laptop all arround all day
2- Egyptians use HP while foreigners use Apple (smart)
3- some foreigners had this tiny laptop in a size of a makeup box
i guess they used it in the out and then later they synchronize with a bigger devices
i can't believe someone will use 8 inch screen all his life
4- the bandwidth in the BA network is 11MB (i remember mic once said something similar to me and i thought he was jocking, 11mb!! there are no standard bandwidth over 2, you must saw a wrong number, but i was wrong)
5- the egyptians (sharafona) and mobiles !!! they let the mobiles open during the session which make it very annoying, guests were going to kill the traitor if they could know him
6- as Egyptian standard behavior, we take picture with celebrity, the legendery Jimmy wales and any member of the board when asked to take picture with, they were like (me!!, why!! i'm no one, I'm just a volunteer)
7- in a break i asked Michael Snow in the lobby (sorry sir if my question looks foolish, but i see that the foundation rely totally on the community - donating, contributing - what if the community stopped doing this for whatever reason, what is going to happen to the foundation? and more important to the idea of free knowledge?)
and his answer was (that's why we make this event to know what the communicate want, and for the financial stuff, we are trying to get another support from outside the community)
8- the previous wikimania were less vital and less numbered, i guess the BA support put the wikimania event in a higher standard
9- no Egyptian news paper was interested in the whole event, in the first day a tv channel came for 5 minutes in the opening ceremony, but in the whole 3 days there was a non Egyptian tv channels interviewing the guests, in Sunday Almasry Alyoum published a silly article about jimmy wales telling it happened Saturday where his lecture was on Thursday
10- Egyptian youth were very active in the discussions
11- lot of employees attend the conference because it's a job duty (governmental IT centers, ministries representative, ...)
12- there were 2 Egyptians people which i think they were Manal & Alaa the famous MANALAA bloggers
hope similar events happen again in Alex

Wikamania 2008 - Day3 : احنا بقغ يا ثعاد

third day

the day started with a lecture about teaching the teachers the global challenges like war, poverity .... etc

and of course these courses are open courses

it wasn't that interesting

and then a break

after ...

a session about use wikis for political participation by a spanish speaker

he was talking about events happened in Spain and how demonstrations were assembled using sms, blogs, .... etc

and he was talking about how the community responded fast to this tools and acted immediately

so it was a wiki society

then i tried to attend a session about conception & misconception about wikipedia but unfortunately the session room was full and i couldn't even step in the room

so i went to the available session and it was a session about diplopedia the wiki of the US department of state

then a session about free network services: the speaker was a geek

he talked about examples for network and he mentioned facebook as a netowrk example where they stopped sharing their code because what the community have found 2 abuses at least, they were tracking users actions
he copied the lines on the screen, yeeeeeh even facebook is a bad place to hang in
:(
then it was lunch time
later a session by another IT geek (a UN developper and project manager)
he talked about little wiki they create for the kids in the poor africa who have no schools or computers
he said some interesting points such as the kids didn't care about the site usabilities basics as we know it
they just wanted a page to write in
then another great session by Florence Devouard (the Ex chair board) - 7ete set to7faaa
she was talking down to earth
what has happened last year? negative points we should fix? how community communicate in a better way?
she wasn't telling a speech she was talking ask question listen to the audience
it was like a session in a house living room
everyone talk seriously and everyone listen, trying to reach a better status for the foundation
she start by saying that everyone in the conference was talking about how wikimedia is evolving and is the good things that happened the last year, but i wanna talk about the bad thing it needs to be fix
she was honest and serious
this is - in my culture - the closed room talking, the positive point should be mentioned only but the negative should be in the dark so no one notice it
but again this conference is a window that i used to look on the other people in the other culture way of thinking and behaving
final break and then 2 sessions about people used the wiki concept in doing some application
one of them was copernicus: The Virtual
3D Encyclopedia, which was built according to 2-Layer Interface
Paradigm (2LIP). The background layer of the 2LIP-type user
interface is a 3D scene, which a user cannot directly interact with.
The foreground layer is HTML content. Only taking an action on
this content (e.g. pressing a hyperlink) can affect the 3D scene

in other way if I'm reading an article about the pyramids, then a pyramids 3d graphic will be in the background, when i hit "KING'S ROOM" word for example the background graphic will move to the inner pyramid and then to the room when i'm reading so i can see and read the information
the other session was about tagging the text in wiki (some hight techniques)
anyway
the 3 days sessions were done and then the closing ceremony time
Dr.Ismail serag Eldin talked a little
michael snow the new chair and Sue Gardner the executive director they thanked the BA, the volunteer, Florence , the organizer, ....
they talked about the next wikimania 2009 in Argentine
and it's over
GOOD BYE WIKIMEDIA
"experience I'll never forget"