Ra'fat ELHagan

I'm not a TV person
I don't watch TV because honestly i don't have the time
so every couple of days i may over dinner watch a 10 minutes from a series or a talk show and as soon as i finish my dinner i leave the room because what i watch is getting on my nerves EVERYTIME
last night holding my remote control and i played this nervvous game of switching the channels quickly ... I stopped when i heared the music of Ra'fat ElHagan
OOH it's Ra'fat ElHagan i screamed
my 10 years younger cousin was there beside me and she looked at me waiting for an explanation for this joy feeling i have .. for her it's some old series
me: it's Ra'fat ElHagan !!
cousin: yeah .. so?
me: Ra'fat ElHagan !! don't you know him? didn't u watch it before?
cousin: no
me: WHAT !!!! (almost screaming .. shouting ..)
cousin: ok ok some time i watch couple of minutes and i switch the channel .. i don't understand
why it's cool or worth watching .. you act like my mom, she 's too get excited when i's on.

.... (you act like my mom) hitted me by a rock so i tried to explain to her why i'm excited
me: ok, i'll tell you why, well in the old days (again i'm hitted by a rock but this time i hit my self) when it was only channel 1 & 2 eltelevision elmasry elra2ed, @ 7.30pm daily channel 1 had an arabic series and @ 9.30 channel 2 had an english one, Ra'fat ElHagan was one of the most successful series ever and all the people were making absolute sure that they'll be home before 7.30pm to watch it, next day in schools or work people were discussing the series .. judging the character .. so on. Ra'fat ElHagan was so special because it was the first time we saw a similar story on TV (secret intelligent .. spies .. Egyptian Jwish society .. Israeli society ......

i kept talking and talking about how great artistically this series was and she kept looking at me without saying a word
when it finished and the end titre was on screen i said : oh Saleh Morsy do you know him?
cousin: who????????
me: the writer of this, he was a journalist he was the first one to open the secret files and creates shows and movies ......... and again i kept talking about him telling her about Gomaa ElShawan and other shows
my cousin gave me the same look i gave my father years ago when he was trying to make me understand why 3ashek Elro7 song by AbdelWahab is a great work of art

I found out that her entire generation doesn't know anything about Ra'fat ElHagan besides the music tone on mobiles and other shows
it's a huge gap between us
we felt good about ourselves as egyptians because of this shows, they didn't see it and they didn't know or believe it

so beside feeling OLD, i felt like I'm OLDDDDD
lol





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my friends

I believe friends are a blessing not many people are fortune enough and have it

although i'm among the people who (betet3ab wala teksabsh) and not among the people who are (beykassabo wala yet3abosh)

I'm fortune to have some true friends

ok this post i'm fighting myself for couple of days now to post it or not

i'll not say anything new and i'll say even some sad thoughts .. why should i post a similar post?

but in the other hand .. i want to say thank you to my friends and when i say it face to face they start laughing at me

(i think my face needs some adjustment)
anyway
here it's
every year in mother's day, my friends expect that i'll be in a blue mode and they take the decision to change that
the thing is i never talk about being blue ever because i feel it's normal
why talk about old news
anyway this year in particular i wasn't upset or feeling blue i felt like ..... NOTHING
don't know why exactly why i felt **** NOTHING****
nothing bad and nothing good

i think it's a psycological trick (kalam kabeer ba2a) the mind do it to selfprotect against bad feelings

ok so this year it happened once again

i got the mysterious phone call in the afternoon

friend: WE'RE COMING

me: heh?? do we have plan for tonight?

friend: no

me: ahh i got it .. it's because mother's day .. honestly i feel ok

friend: doesn't matter WE'RE COMING NOW ... BYE

so i don't have something more to say

and after some time they were with me in my room looking over some old pics on my pc of old events and trips we went together ... sharing some great moments and laughs

UNINVITED they came to support me and this really helped me a lot

after they went home i asked myself WHAT IF they didn't come .. although i didn't feel the need of any support today but of course they helped me ending this hard day with a very pleasant end and prevent the painfull feeling of being alone from hurting me

so THANK YOU MY FRIENDS FOR BEING IN MY LIFE

AND THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME THOSE FRIENDS

P.S: mala2itsh sora teshbehna 3'yr di .. el7'ale2 elnate2 e7na

carmina burana

we all know Nelly song (e3mel 7etta .. 7etta 7etta ...)
but the original of is it the famous carmina burana piece

O Fortune
like the moon
you are changeable
ever waxing
and waning
hateful life
first oppresses
and then soothes
as fancy takes it
poverty
and power
it melts them like ice

Fate
and empty
you whirling wheel
you are malevolent
well-being is vain
and always fades to nothing
shadowed
and veiled
you plague me too
now through the game
I bring my bare backt
to your villainy

Fate is against me
in health
and virtue
driven on
and weighted down
always enslaved
So at this hour
without delay
pluck the vibrating strings
since Fate
strikes down the string man
everyone weep with me!

MEANING:
and this as i see it: fih nass betkssab wala tet3absh we nass bete3ab wala tekssabsh