شهوة الورق الأبيض

فى المكتبة حيث تتراص عشرات من الكراسات الجديدة أجد متعتى فى تأملهم وتحسس اغلفتهم
كل يوم ابغى كراسة جديدة ورقها ابيض ناصع يصرخ لحبر قلمى
كل ورقة بفكرة وكل كراسة 28 فكرة
وتطغى شهوة الورق الابيض على كل الشهوات
الكراسة الجديدة هى تحد جديد .. هل سيمكننى ملىء ورقها كله؟
هل ساكتب ما يستحق؟ هلى سارسم ما يعبر؟
مع نهاية كل كراسة اربح جولة واستعد لأخرى
للحظات يصغر العالم لتحتويه ورقة جديدة بيضاء تنتظر بشوق قلمى
ويكون الحل الاوحد لكل مشاكل العالم هو ان تمتلىء تلك الورقة بشىء ما
لا يوجد علاج معروف لشهوة الورق الابيض
ولا يمكن ترويض النفس على محاربتها
فتلك شهوة حميدة
شهوة تجعل الانسان فنان حالم

just another ordinary miracle

Sarah McLachlan-Ordinary Miracle


It's not that unusual
When everything is beautiful
It's just another ordinary miracle today

The sky knows when it's time to snow
Don't need to teach a seed to grow
It's just another ordinary miracle today

Life is like a gift they say
Wrapped up for you everyday
Open up and find a way
To give some of your own

Isn't is remarkable
That every time a rain drop falls
It's just another ordinary miracle today

Birds in winter have their fling
But always make it home by spring
It's just another ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday
Please don't throw your dreams away
Hold them close to your heart
Cause we're all a part
Of the ordinary miracle

Ordinary miracle

Do you want to see a miracle?

Ah... ah... ah...

It seems so exceptional
That things just work out after all
It's just another ordinary miracle today

Sun comes up and shines so bright
And disappears again at night
It's just another ordinary miracle today

Ahh... ahh... ahhh...

It's just another ordinary miracle today

Our eyes are always wide open but have we ever SAW the ordinary miracles around us everyday, we always asking for a miracle, pray, cry, ...for what we don't have, yet never we were grateful for what we have.

DAD 9 years have passed and you still amaze us

29/8/2001 one of the worst two days in our lives (my sister and I), the day my father passed away.
As any child thinks his/her father is the giant who can reach out to touch the moon, we did believe that during our father’s life, but after his death, the image changed TOTALLY.
One of the hardest and painful things that usually happened when someone dies is when the family has to go through his/her things (pictures, clothes, papers, books, etc). It’s a reliving of the death moment over and over; it’s a reliving that goes on as long as days and weeks, while the death moment itself is only a minute. But there’s a good thing in this long torture process which is discovering the LEGACY(something handed down or received from an ancestor or predecessor).
The legacy of my father as we thought was long list of positions:
- Assistant General Manager
- joining the staff of UNICESO - USA
- General Manager of Alexandria YMCA
- Professor and Head of Psychology Department- Faculty of Arts - Oran University, Algeria
- Member of Board of Directors of Alexandria YMCA
- Leadership Training Consultant of YMCAs

And honorable certificates:
- Bachelor Degree of Commerce – Alexandria University
- Diploma of “ Tax Accounting “ - Faculty of Commerce - Alexandria University
- Master Degree of “ Public Finance “ – Faculty of Commerce - Alexandria University
- Diploma of “ Leadership in YMCA” - George Williams College – USA
- Master Degree of “Education “ Springfield College – USA “Community and Leadership Development”
- P.H.D of Psychology – Lancaster University – UK “Attitudes within Juvenile Criminal Justice”
And some books decorated by my father’s name as author.
How narrow mind we were?
This man was not a certificates, positions or books, This man was an effect.
Since the death of our father, we meet people that sometimes we don’t know who told us stories about how they are grateful for what our father did to help them or TEACH them.
Different people with different stories in different times, the one common thing in all of this is how all those people ends the story: “I’ll always be grateful for your father, I’ll never forget how he helped me”
Our feelings in those moments go beyond being proud; it’s more like a fairytale princess flying on the magic carpet.
Our father spent most of his life work for or connected to the YMCA. An association he believed so in its’ message. And they decided to honor him by naming a hall after him.
And we have been asked to bring some of his stuff (that reflects his personality) to the association to be put in this hall. And again we had to go through his stuff, another round of torture and legacy discovering.
Amazingly, new things were revealed to us, new information about our father we didn’t know about, and pictures with famous people we didn’t care to look before, letters to and from people who are now GM or CEO in different organizations and institutions, and so on.
The hall contains his picture of course, copies of all his certificates, copies of the master degrees and PHDs that he supervised as a college professor, pictures of him from different periods of his life and copies of the books he wrote.

In the honoring ceremony, we have met old people and young, and they all said the same thing one way or another:” WE WILL NEVER FORGET”
How to be so positively effective?????? That is the keyword
These words are not said in speeches or in video cameras but in private personal so intimate way, that’s why these words are so honest. In the Ribbon-cutting ceremony, I was standing next to the Chairman of the Board of Directors, who stood for seconds on the door looking to my father pictures hanged on the wall, and whispered: “الله يرحمك يا د.يوسف”
I trembled, with frozen tears in my eyes; I looked at him and then at my father’s picture and the question was in my head screaming out loud: Dad; how you did it? How you did effect all those people so deeply and so positively, that even now after 9 years they still have these feelings for you?
The GM talked about our father and by the end of his presentation he was chocking with his tears. Members of board of director shock my hand
People all around the place were telling the same line:” WE WILL NEVER FORGET”
OH MY GOD !!!!
Dad, it made us feel as you were a treasure, everyone met you get some. We all share this treasure, the treasure of your knowledge, personality, heart, ……
That is the real LEGACY, that is what we still enjoy having till now and will keep till we die.

لا أملك جناحا لأطير

أنا لا اظفر بالراحة.
أنا ظامئ إلى الأشیاء البعیدة المنال.
إن روحي تهفو ، تواقةً ، إلى لمس طرف المدى المظلم.
إیه أیها المجهول البعید وراء الأفق ، یا للنداء الموجع المنساب من نایك.
أنا أنسى ، أنسى دوما أنني لا أملك جناحا لأطير ،
وأنني مقید دوما بهذا المكان.
إنني مت قد الشوق ، یقظان ، أنا غریب في أرضٍ عجیبة.
إن زفراتك تتناهى إلي ، لتهمس في أذني أملا مستحیلا .
إن صوتك یعرفه قلبي كما لو كان قلبه.
أیها المجهول البعید ، یا للنداء الموجع المنساب من نایك!
أنا أنسى ، أنسى دوما أنني لا أعرف الطریق وأنني
لا أمتلك جوادا مجنحا .
أنا لا أظفر بالطمأنینة.
أنا شارد ، أهیم في قلبي.
في الضباب المشمس ، من الساعات الضجرة ، ما
أبهى مرآك العظیم یتجل ى في زرقة السماء!
أیها المجهول البعید ، یا للنداء الموجع المنساب من نایك!
إنني أنسى ، أنسى دوما ، أن الأبواب كل ها موصدة
في البیت الذي أفزع فیه إلى وحدتي.

طاغور

pencil, logo and toys

Months ago, I thought i lost my Alba watch. not just a watch but the watch i bought with my first salary. I was TERRIBLY sad, some people made jokes about it, others didn't care but one person said: "I know what it means" ..... Merci mariam.

The thing i was trying to explain to everyone is that it's not about the watch but about the memory of my first salary and what that meant to me then.

this week another one of the flock left the country, again it jumps to my mind. what kind of stuff she'll take to save her memories?

it's something not many people share actually, not everyone connect items with memories, those people are the ones that find it so easily to throw away old stuff, but for us the memories/stuff characters we can't.

Looking deep into my stuff, i found those 3 things that i keep for more then a decade: a pencil, school logo, toys.

WHY?

The pencil is the one I used in the architecture class (عمارة) in Thanaweya Amaa 0.7mm. at this point i had a dream to be an engineer, and of course it didn't happen. in the class, the architecture teacher said to me over and over how great my drawings are, of course he said completly the opposite when he saw my artistic draws (فنون) :(

this pencil represents the dream, the hopes for the future that i had one day. this pencil says to me i'm not an engineer but i can make a great architecture sketchs after all. in a way i'm an artist even if the system says i'm not.

I liked the architecture class very much, because of what i was during it. i was doing something i like very much, creating dreams, actually enjoying having a pencil and ruler in my hands and for seconds i was thinking i'm the greatest architecture on earth.

the school logo is there not because i love my school, NO i hate school, always had and always will. but i keep the logo because it represents the education that i'm thankfull for having. education helps to define the personality, and i had a great education, which gave me better chances then usual, I'm proud of being in a good school and had a good education. One of the first things Obama said to his people after being president is go back to school, he addressed the mothers at home asking them to go back to school to get an education to expand their opportunities in life.

the toys are the things that remind me of my best friend which i can't see, be with or talk to anymore, simply because she is dead. she bought those stuff so i would put it on my desk, things that teenage girls friends do, buying stuff that maybe unnecssary or unimportant and sometimes not even usefull but just for the sake of buying something to the friends. this stuff represents the memories of friendship, real deep innocent friendship, i'll never forget. RIP my friend.

but what if an item of those lost or broke, did this mean i'll lose the memory? will i forget my friend, my school or even my dreams?

the staight answer is NO, nothing will be forgetten BUT i'll be sad of course to loose this items.

what about you, do you connect your memories to items?

Procrastination

المرايا

قلت أبص ف المرايا
يمكن أكون إحلويت..
فضلت داير أبص
مخلتش..
ولا مرايا ف البيت..
فى الحمام ف الأوضة ف دولاب..
أو متعلقة ع الحيط..
شفت..
سكت شوية..
وبعدين اتخضيت..
معقول..
معقول أنا قضيت العمر ده كله..
وزى ما رحت
زى ما جيت..
معقول أنا عمرى ما فكرت..
ولا اتغيرت..
ولا حبيت..
وإزاى ساكت على روحى ده كله..
وليه استنيت..؟!
يا ريتنى ما كان عندى مرايا..
ويا ريتنى ما بصيت..
على سلامة فى المصرى اليوم

you don't like my jokes?

PLEASE watch the movie first: it's only 30seconds


Was it funny? NOOO
but it's funny for some (the intel people)
how many times, you said something thought it's funny and no one laughed, because they didn't get it OR they didn't think it's funny?
well, it happens a lot to me
It's so mysterious how the human mind works, although we all see same objects, everyone of us interpreted it differently, sometimes to the extremes.
yet we all humans, but we never all agree on one thing, no matter how beautiful it's: flower, sun, babies laughs, the drop of a water on very gentle green leave .....
for someone somewhere there's a reason to hate this stuff: can you blame an Asthma patient for hating flowers or pets? (for example)
we have to admit we are different, that every person is a unique biological system :)
but then what?
how we should deal with our differences?
i see only 2 ways:
First: to accept the individual differences and see it as a enrichment to the group, use it, to expand the group benefits
OR
Second: to set a majority rule and eliminate all the other different rules
which is very much what is happening to the society NOW
I'm deeply sad to see the society turns to a MONOvoice
that's bad
we don't all laughs for the same jokes, like same music, read the same articles, believe in the same believes, WE ARE different.
if i'm a geek don't laugh at me because you are not, if i'm a christian don't ask me to wear what you wear because that what you think is right, if i'm a girl don't just assume that i can't think or drive just because you have different hormones, .....
and the list can go on for pages
Conclusion: if you don't like my jokes, it's not because it's bad, it's simply different.

changing the hardware not the software

my credit card expired and i went to the bank to get the new one

it was a piece of cake, it only took me seconds to get my new one

HONESTLY

but i woke up from this dream when i start to using it, it doesn't work

i went back to the nice young smiling lady to tell her: it doesn't work, is there something that should be done to activate it or something?

she: yes of course, you should call the number wrote on the enveloppe, oh my god, didn't i tell you that??

me: no you didn't

she: well i'm sorry, you should call this number first to activate the card

me: why can't you activate it now using your computer to get to the system

she: i'm sorry i can't, well you know when you call you'll have to answer some private questions, so i can't do it for you

OMG: private!!!! how a bank ask private information more then what's already there, the bank is the only establishment in the world that know exactly where do you live, how much money you have, your the security number, your date of birth, place of birth, telephone numberssss, sometimes your relatives......?

what more private can it be?

i said to myself may be the questions will be the kind of: your first boyfriend's name, have you ever been kissed, what flavor of ice cream you prefer?

any way, i tried to call this 5 digital number and as expected it's has this unsuportable lady of:

جميع عملاؤنا مشغولون الآن بخدمة عملاء أخرين

so i waited .. waited .. redialed .. waited .. waited

and finally someone answered and asked me 3 questions:

1- number of the card

2- account

3- birth date

and then he said: the card is activate now, you can use in 2 hours

WHAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is it???

what was the private questions, i missed it: the card number or my birth date???

this information are already there on every bank form, the man didn't even ask for my name

can someone please explains to me the necessity of this call

the bank had hired people to ask the clients for their birth dates?? total waste of money and time

i guess some genius said that banks in Europe use a 5 digital phone number to offer more services to the clients and we should do that, obviously they did it without thinking about the usability of the process

AS a writer i like very much (Soliman Gouda) wrote once in almasry alyoum that the government always change the hardware only and not the software

meaning they rebuild the offices, install computers and high tech devices but the procedures are the exact same thing

an obvious example is (elbosta), they still use the paper cards that are there since the beginning of the millennium and then they check the account on the computer, and 70% of the time the network is down

Waste of time and money or as gouda said: changing the hardware not the software

talk shows scarecrow

I always find dealing with any governmental department a nightmare

sometimes things turned out good and i finish my paper in a quick decent amount of time and sometime i just gave up and leave

BUT some people go to the extreme behavior and give the employees what they deserve: HARD TIME

i was in a place to issue a certificate, a lady enter the facility and started to argue with 2 staff women about her papers, they (so calmly) told her that they can do nothing for her, and that her paper was already processed and stop coming asking about it

what she did was BOLD

she said: OK, i'll shoot you with my mobile and send it to the minister and all the talk shows.

and she did; she took her mobile and opened the camera and shoot everyone in the office and said in a loud voice those people refused to finish my papers.

SO guess what happened?

the office principal called the head of security and told him to confiscate the mobile, the woman refused, so they negotiate ..........

the head of security pushed the offices staff to finish her papers and in return she'll delete the movie she recorded on her mobile.

and they did

SO people now in any governmental office have a scarecrow called TALK SHOW.

what the woman did was bold in my judgment and it shows the great effects of the stupid (my opinion) talk shows in the community

they weren't intimidate when she said she'll file a complain to the minister, but when she said she'll send the movie to the shows

that's an enormous problem because, the talk show in a way represent the society supervision but the truth is that non of the talk show hosts are honest or fair when discussing any issue (ALL OF THEM)

so should we giving the monster the tools to destroy us? or start first taming it?

tedata theft

a friend sent me this link, it's a photography competition held by TEData
coool, right?
Absolutely NOT
when i checked the competition rules, i found out some "pleasant" ones:
يحق لشركة "نهضة مصر للصحافة والإعلام" استخدام الصور بأى شكل كان بعد تلقيها من المتسابقين دون أن يكون عليها أى التزامات.. ولن يتم إعادة الصور إلى المشاركين بعد انتهاء المسابقة.

يحق لشركة "نهضة مصر للصحافة والإعلام" تعديل أى شرط من شروط المسابقة بدون إبداء أية أسباب وفى أى وقت تراه .

this is Unethical, it means i take a picture send it to a competition, probably don't win a thing and then they 'll use my picture without the need of my permission in any and every medium they want !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's an invention in the world these days called "حقوق الملكية الفكرية / copyright"
COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!
this organization is a governmental one, they should be the one to obey the law not to break it.

what if someone, took my picture put his name or watermark on it and sell it online or offline, how they will prevent that from happening
selling your picture online is very profitable if you have the quality pictures, check the list

We have to stop apply for similar Unfair terms, don't participate,unless they change the rules and keep your copyright over your product
The thing is it's a common behavior for governmental organizations like the water, electricity and gas providers, they always make you sign unfair contract "عقود اذعان"
they put the rules, you have to accept because there are no other providers
BUT online photography contest tooo? HELL NO
there are other thousands alternatives
want to be known, win prizes and have unlimited exposure upload your pictures to flickr or similar sites, participate in honorable competitions.

دستور يا اسيادنا

فى قعدة لطيفة مع شوية بنات لطيفة اتكلمنا فى موضوع لطيف
البنات دول علاقتهم بالسياسة تنحصر فى مادة حقوق الانسان اللى بياخدوها فى الكلية (اذن العلاقة بين السياسة وحقوق الانسان واضحة جدا ) ده اولا
ثانيا الموضوع اللطيف هو ليه مفيش تمثيل قبطى فى اى انتخابات
المهم انا قلتلهم طبعا دى غلطتنا علشان مش بنرشح ولا نترشح
فردوا بان ماهو اصلا ماينفعش يبقى رئيس الجمهورية قبطى
انا: ليه يا جماعة؟
هن: علشان الدستور بيقول كده
انا: الدستور مااشترطش ديانة المرشح
هن: لا احنا اخدنا فى مادة حقوق الانسان فى الكلية ان المرشح لازم يبقى مسلم
انا: يا جماعة الدستور مش بيقول كده
هن: يا بنتى احنا اخدناها فى الكلية، انتى بتكلمى فى ايه
طبعا الموضوع ده وجعنى جدا جدا
بعد البحث والتقصى وصلت للصفحة دى: دستور جمهورية مصر العربية على موقع بوابة الحكومة الالكترونية
وفى الباب الخامس: نظام الحكم
الفصل الاول: رئيس الدولة
مادة(75): يشترط فيمن ينتخب رئيسا للجمهورية أن يكون مصريا من أبوين مصريين، وأن يكون متمتعا بالحقوق المدنية والسياسية، وإلا تقل سنه عن اربعين سنة ميلادية.
اهه اهه ادى الدستور على موقع الحكومة ماجبش سيرة ديانة المرشح
المهم رجعت لواحدة من مجموعة النقاش ووريتها الصفحة فردت بان الكتاب بتاع الكلية مابيقولش كده
طبعا انا مش عايزة ارشح نفسى ولا حاجة انا بس كبرت فى دماغى انى اوصل لمصدر المعلومة
السؤال بقى: اى الكتابين اصح: الدستور على موقع الحكومة ولا كتاب حقوق الانسان اللى فى الكلية؟
هل ممكن يتم تزوير الدستور فى كتاب جامعى على اعتبار ان ماحدش حيقرا الدستور والناس حتكبر دماغها؟
هل الطلبة اللى درسوا الكتاب ده ممكن يتغير عندهم فكرة فضلوا يذاكروها سنة بحالها؟
والاهم: هل الطلبة الاقباط وصلهم احساس ناس كتير يهمها تزرعه فيهم: انتوا ضيوف وخواجات؟ ولا حاربوا الاحساس ده داخلهم
على اى الاحوال وفى الختام: اتمنى ان اللى يروح ينتخب فى اى انتخابات ايا كانت يبقى على اساس معيار الكفاءة مش اى حاجة تانية
وبرضه مساء الخييييييييييييير يا مصر

مساء الخييييييييييييييييييييييييير

ليه مش حيبقى عندنا مفاعل نووى ولا حتدخل اى جامعة من جامعاتنا قائمة اهم 500 جامعة فى العالم
علشان حالة التحشيش العام اللى بقينا فيها
مثال:
امبارح رحت لنجار علشان ييجى يصلح لنا حاجات فى البيت
وانا عمالة اشرحله الموقف وايه المطلوب
فاجأنى بالآتى:
- مش انتى بنت الدكتور؟
- ايوة
- هو مش باين ليه؟
- (اتساع فى حدقة العين - فتح الفم لآخره - كتم الصوت: باختصار تنحت)
- هو الله يرحمه ولا ايه؟
- (ردى عليه تكون من كلمة واحدة) 2001
- ياااه ده من مدة يعنى

طبعا النجار التايه دة لا جه ولا صلح ولا نيلة
ملاحظات مهمة جدا لتوضيح الصورة:
- النجار ده فى شارعنا
- لازم نعدى عليه على الاقل 5 مرات كل اسبوع (اى فرد من الاسرة) فى طريقنا لاى حتة
- بعد وفاة ابويا انا وامى واختى كنا كلنا لابسين اسود طبعا لشهوووووور

بمعنى: الراجل ده اخد 8 سنين علشان يلاحظ ان جار له اتوفى
واخيرا: مساء الخيييييييييييييييييييييييييييير يا مصر

I wanna be numb

Numb - Pet Shop Boys



Don't wanna hear the news
What's going on
What's coming through
I don't wanna know
Don't wanna know
Just wanna hide away
Make my my escape
I want the world
To leave me alone
Feels like I feel too much
I've seen too much
For a little while
I want to forget

I wanna be numb
I don't wanna feel this pain no more
Wanna lose touch
I just wanna go and lock the door
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna feel nothing
I wanna be numb
I just wanna be
Wanna be numb

Can't find no space to breathe
World's closing in
Right on me now
Well that's how it feels
That's how it feels
Too much light
There's too much sound
Wanna turn it off
Wanna shut it out
I need some relief
Think that like I think too much
I've seen too much
There is just too much
Thought in my head

I wanna be numb
I don't wanna feel this pain no more
Wanna lose touch
I just wanna go and lock the door
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna feel nothing
I wanna be numb
I just wanna be
Wanna be
Taken away from all the madness
Need to escape
Escape from the pain
I'm out on the edge
About to lose my mind
For a little while
For a little while
I wanna be numb

I don't wanna think
I don't wanna feel nothing
I wanna be numb
I don't wanna feel this pain no more
Wanna lose touch
I just wanna go and lock the door
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna feel nothing
I wanna be numb
I just wanna be
Wanna be numb
I just wanna be
Wanna be numb

Work moral

At work something happened that made me think about writing this post
2 months earlier a colleague left work and another one was hired to fill her place
since day 1, all the rest of staff agreed on one thing
she's a very difficult person to deal with
it was a personal opinions not related to work
no one was happy doing the smallest conversation with her
bit by bit, her work attitudes turned to be the worst ever seen
doesn't want to help anyone, answering to the superior and other with tone full of IMPUDENCE
her first and always answer to anyone is: why me? it's not in my job description or I'm not going to do IT
no one was actually judge her work or her efficiency, it was all about personal stuff

yesterday talking with one of the staff (a real good decent person), she raised her voice and things turned to be a fight
each went to the chairman office and he took a decision in a millisecond
"I'll let her go today"
and he did

in less then an hour, all the staff were working on how to replace her
downloading CVs and calling people to set interviews before even she left the office

the moral is when you are bad in dealing with your colleagues, no one will give you a second chance. people will be happy to let you go.
the thing that keeps pumping up in my mind is that i was her superior and i was the only one who judge her work, and i didn't share this with all the rest, only with my superior
but all the rest of the staff judge her personality only and they were all agreed that she has to go
most of all the chairman who didn't took much time to take his decision, in fact he already made his decision before she entered his office
and for him the problem wasn't about the level of efficiency but the bad communication and cooperation between her and the rest

build strong work connections with your colleagues and be ready to help when you can if you can, because that's how you earn stocks in the market of your company

هو انا من عصر السينما الصامتة؟

البوست ده باكتبه وان مبؤئة من اللى بيحصل علشان كده بالعربى العامى كمان
انا ماليش فى التليفزيون ولا فى الافلام او البرامج العربى ... انا اللى باجيبه لنفسى
امبارح باتعشى وحاطه الجرنان جنبى باقلب فيه (ايوة باعمل الحاجتين فى وقت واحد) وكالعادة التليفزيون مفتوح خلفية صوتية كده
انا مش باتفرج عليه انا كنت مركزة فى الجرنان
وحد غلط وقال لى (الريموت جنبك هاتى البيت بيتك) وماله .. برنامج برضه محترم وبيقدمه محمود سعد راجل محترم وعلى القناة الحكومية الرسمية قناة محترمة برضه
ولما قللبت كان فى اللحظة اللى بيعلن فيها محمود سعد خبر حيهز الدنيا وينسى الناس طوابير العيش وانفلونزا الخنازير واعدام هشام طلعت مصطفى
الخبر الجبار ده هو انه حيستضيف ابطال فيلم دكان شحاتة
عادى جدا وايه يعنى ... بتحصل
مذيع وممثلين وحركات والفيلم رائع والممثلين هايلين والفيلم ده ماحصلش
وانا فى عقلى باقول انا مالى كلها دقايق واقوم اسيب الاوضة دى خالص
لكن قبل ما اعمل كده ابتديت الفقرة المميزة المعجزة الهايلة اللى ماحصلتش
مش ناوية اركز قوى فى التفاهات اللى سمعتها من طقم الفيلم لانه فعلا كلام يجيب الضغط وعسر الهضم
المهم اللى شالنى وجنننى وخلينى اتخض من اللى باسمعه هو كلام المذيع المحترم محمود سعد وهو بيلعلع ويقول على الممثلة انها "مُزة" وعلى الممثلين انهم "صايعين تمثيل" ..... نركز مع بعضينا تانى
برنامج موجه للأسرة كلها على القناة الحكومية الرسمية بيتقال فيها الكلام ده
مش كفاية الراجل اللى بيعلم البصبصة بتاع "موز .. موز" اهو على الاقل على قناة خاصة طالع يقرفنا فيها بفلوسه
لكن القناة الرسمية الحكومية بيتكلموا فيها كده
يا جماعة حد يفهمنى هو مش الكلام ده كان عيب ولا هما غيروه ولا ايه؟
طب مش حد يقول
زمان كانت الوالدة بتزعقلنا لما نقول الكلام ده .. طب ايه بقى؟ كانت بتخنقنا وخلاص
والكلام ده جميل وفل الفل واحنا اللى من عصر السينما الصامتة؟
يا جدعان حد يفهمنى
انا مش باتكلم من منطلق دينى وحركات و"لا تخرج كلمة ردية من افواهكم بل كل ما كان صالحا للبنيان حسب الحاجة كي يعطي نعمة للسامعين (اف 4 : 29)
"
انا مش قصدى كده خالص
انا باتكلم من منطلق اجتماعى اخلاقى .. ذوق حس
ينفع الكلام ده يتقال فى الاعلام الموجه للأسرة ويسمعه الصغيرين قبل الكبار؟

weekend amusement

in weekends we (my sister and I) try to do something useful, so this week we went to Alexandria Museum

the place is a big white palace once belonged to a rich Alexandrian and later the USA embassy

you can easily notice the beauty of the old palace and the marvelous architecture techniques used to build it

the museum is divided into 3 sections:
Pharonic periods
Greek and Romain periods
Coptic, Islamic and modern periods
each occupy a whole floor of the palace

the amazing thing about the museum is the tomb:
they used the underground flour for the pharonic periods and under (the underground) there's a space used to be a wine basement, they turned to a pharanoic tomb

it's sooooo creepy, honestly: soft lighting, dark wall painting, mummy, anobees
my sister was scared to death
(LOOOOOOOL, and this of course was amusement to me )

some pieces are catching: السنكسار the book of saints in the coptic part, face made by mosaic in the greek/ romain part
Ekhnaton head, Hatshebsot head, warrior shield from the islamic part, a lady handbag made of gold (ENTIRELY) from the modern era was owned by the royal family


something funny happened and i have to share it:
in the Coptic part, were some pieced (شواهد قبور)
where a man or a woman stands praying between 2 pahraonic gods (horas & anobees) i guess
so seeing this was too provoking for me:
"this is absurd, is horus and anaboees part of the christian believes to put these pieces here!! they must found no place to put these pieces so they just put it any where thinking that no one will care, but this is misrepresent the believe, this is unacceptable, .......... so on"
my sister was "kabary dema3'k"
but i didn't

there was a tour guide, Egyptian walking with a group of tourists, after finished she sat down on the stairs giving them sometime to take pictures, i went to her and said: excuse me, i was wondering about some pieces in the coptic section, the man praying with anobees and horus, why?

she is very intelligent woman and immediately understand what i was getting at so she said: ahh you mean (شواهد القبور), you are right it's not Christianity to have anobees and horus, but some people when the converted to Christianity they kept their old traditions with them for a while, although they didn't believe in horus and anobees any more they were costumed to put their pictures in the tomb with them, keeping the old tradition faded by time of course and later we can't find similar pieces

this was a great answer, she respected my believe, explained the matter in a very scientific and acceptable manner. i said thank you very much smiled and walked away

my sister was "can you calm now and stop making a fuss from everything"
i'm glad to ask the question else i would walk away feeling bad about the whole situation, but i'm not glad of myself because i assumed things that aren't real in a fast stupid way

Global warming awareness

Global warming awareness

I think it's time for us who are alexandrians to start acting seriously to protect our land
Alexandria and the delta are in great danger, and some expect that this land will be totally covered by water after 2 decades
when we will do something about?

The Five Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

It's an old book i read it in arabic years ago but to use in sunday school,
it simply says that people use usually 5 languages to express their love to the others (this is valid on all kind of relationships)
1- Words of Affirmation
2- Quality Time
3- Receiving Gifts
4- Acts of Service
5- Physical Touch
everyone of us like to have the 5 (everyone likes to hear good word about himself, spend time with loved people, to receive gifts, like to be helped around his house or even life, and of course like to be touched in a way that means love not harassment)
But there's always a specific language that he/she preferred more

and here is the problem, when i only speak the language of gifts and my friend prefer the quality time language, my friend will feel unsatisfied and maybe not loved at all
while i'm spending money and time searching for the most expensive most elegant gift my friend will see it only as an object not as a translation of friendship or love, if i spend half the time i took to collect the gift with my friend she'll be happy and feel connected with me and most of all loved

why i'm saying this right now?
because suddenly i'm surrounded with bad stories, people need help and support and i keep telling the people that sometimes the help is just in spending some time talking in the phone or paying a quick visit
it doesn't have to be big thing or parties, just be there, just speak the right language
we only talk the language that we prefer, not the others prefer. and then get surprised when the others don't understand what we are saying.
it's like a french guy speaks to a Japanese guy.
when i remember this book, i understand some of my friends acts
REMEMBER to speak with your friends the language that he/she prefers NOT YOUR LANGUAGE

Voir un ami pleurer

MY MOOD EXACTLY


Artist: Lara Fabian
Song: Voir un ami pleurer
Album: En Toute Intimité

Bien sûr il y a les guerres d'Irlande
Et les peuplades sans musique
Bien sûr tout ce manque de tendres
Il n'y a plus d'Amérique
Bien sûr l'argent n'a pas d'odeur
Mais pas d'odeur vous monte au nez
Bien sûr on marche sur les fleurs
Mais voir un ami pleurer !

Bien sûr il y a nos défaites
Et puis la mort qui est tout au bout
Nos corps inclinent déjà la tête
Étonnés d'être encore debout
Bien sûr les femmes infidèles
Et les oiseaux assassinés
Bien sûr nos cœurs perdent leurs ailes
Mais mais voir un ami pleurer !

Bien sûr ces villes épuisées
Par ces enfants de cinquante ans
Notre impuissance à les aider
Et nos amours qui ont mal aux dents
Bien sûr le temps qui va trop vite
Ces métro remplis de noyés
La vérité qui nous évite
Mais voir un ami pleurer !

Bien sûr nos miroirs sont intègres
Ni le courage d'être juifs
Ni l'élégance d'être nègres
On se croit mèche on n'est que suif
Et tous ces hommes qui sont nos frères
Tellement qu'on n'est plus étonnés
Que par amour ils nous lacèrent
Mais voir un ami pleurer !